My Poems

The Poems Originally written by Me

Spared



Staring blankly on your lap
Tears of fury shedding in your weary beaten angelic face
A little creature almost drowned
Suddenly moving, bloodstained it has become
In its first few hours out


By product of your sufferings witnessed
By its innocent inquiring eyes
“Am I not to bring bliss to you?” thought the life on your lap
Slowly scratching its fragile skin against yours
A life indeed that warms you up

Blinded by the light the “life” is giving
You set your feet to the ground
Gradually regaining your weight
And setting your next footsteps
Suddenly there is LIFE


Now staring blankly out of nowhere
Unmoved by the crown of silver hair
You let yourself be overwhelmed
Held in the lap of the “life” you’d almost given up
Each other’s blurred gaze met
The sparer and the spared
The same inquiring eyes you once loathed
“At least you drained the lap that wanted me drowned”

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*This was dedicated to my student who was then about to end his class with me.

Shining Jewel

A shining Jewel in my view
Blurred, Unclear & few
His voice is vivid
And makes my day placid

Smiling face I imagine
That really makes the class goin’
Endless laughs linger
And makes each day better

But today is inevitable
Goodbye I need to mumble
And never will it bring him on the “other line” again
Leaving me sad & barren

But I know he’ll always be
The “Jason” he used to be
Staying bright in the dark
Very visible like a trademark

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Tanging Sandigan

Panu nga ba sisimulan
Hukayin ang aking kamalayan?
Upang matutong harapin mga dagok ng buhay
Sa istoryang tila walang humpay

San nga ba patungo mga munting anino
Na palaging nakasunod sa likuran ko?
Tila nag uudyok na ako’y bumitaw at sumuko
Pero kayak ko ‘to, yan ang alam ko
Dahil tanging ako lamang bida sa istoryang ito

Magpumilit man akong kumawala
Sa daloy ng buhay na di ako ang may gawa
Kitlin man ang buhay ng may sala
Bandang huli ako rin ang magagambala

Mas mabuti nang sa Diyos magtiwala
At sa kaaway’ magbigay pala
Tiyak kaligayahay’ makakamtan
Sa mundong ang alam lng ay ako’y

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Baba

***This Poem is published on our school paper

** This one is just sent to me...but it was then so short & there were no rhymes....I fixed it & here it is....


Fate was kind, and she did sendyou, to be my trusted friend,I’ll stand by you, until the end,because that’s what friends should do
A shoulder lent to catch your tears,your secrets kept, for countless years,protect you from your darkest fearsbecause that’s what friends should do.
I’ll stand by you, when times are grim,though I love you, and you love her,Chances we’d work out are slim.So I just made a happy “us” in my dream
I know I can be kind of slow,and lacking muscles head to toe,but I hope you want me so
Coz surely I’ll be taken out from this great sorrow
But if a friend is all you see,you’ll always have a friend in me,forever by your side I’ll be,because that’s what friends should be

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Unlikely Unlike Them


***This Poem is published on our school paper

I’m as free as a soaring bird
Able to go places “never heard”
Hunting prey for survival
Wanting more than what’s usual

Brave was I according to them
Facing realities that overwhelm
My soul keeps fighting till the last drop
Never stops nor takes a nap

Strong as I might be seen
But also crying deep within
Coz I am also a human being
Who needs to shed a tear when hurting

Even I possess those good qualities
I don’t really want to be like this
I’d rather be weak & have my mother’s care
Than be really strong & endure His stare

Early bird they call me
It’s because I left early
And learned from life enormously
But still my heart remained empty

...I wish I could write some more...but I've been too busy....

there are times that I'm trying & I have much time ...but I lack inspiration

Manila is Survival of the Fittest - I Knew Before I Realized Now !

I'm just fresh from the shock & trauma I got just this morning at about 2 am.....Tears still pours from my face when I give the details to my officemates who are very eager to know what exactly happened...& this is one of the memories that will linger.

2:00 in the morning today...I was treading the main road of Bunag Street in Camarin Caloocan City towards the place I live....when I noticed this two teenage guys wearing hip hop clothes walking towards me. One was clad in plain orange shirt & the other in black & white stipes. The instant I saw them I murmured a brief prayer under my breath. I had the "feeling".

Then all I remember now is me lying on the streets sheepishly shouting "wag!! Wag!! Wag!!". Usually in movies they say "Wag Po" but I think they don't deserve my kind words even in life & death situation. No I think they are not about to rape me. They were just after my bag!!!

I threw my bag towards them while I was running so that they won't get their filthy hands on me. I stumbled so that's why I lie on the streets. I remember now.... but the guy clad in orange shirt still moved towards me & pointed a sharp object..I did'nt notice whether it was an ice pick or knife. Then I shout again...& agai....n. I could still remember the menacing face biting his lower lips. I wouldn't forget him!! After a while all I saw was his back running hastily towards a secluded dark road. At that moment I really felt sorry for myself. Not because I lost my belongings, wallet. id's not much money, digi cam, my school notes, my kikay pouch to name a few but because at that moment I felt HELPLESS...HOPELESS.... LIMITED.first time! Dogs barked but there I was, alone in the well-lit road just few meters away from the police station.

I ran to the station..heavy knocks followed but it was overpowered by the music & laughs of those people who were supposed to be watching the streets. I left because I couldn't breathe anymore.... I arrived home just few walks away & cried on my sister's shoulder. We went back to the station & knocked harder....All of a sudden we were already roaming the streets, roads...asking the passing jeepneys to stop & checking each faces. It was a very novel experience...& the feeling???? can't explain. It was futile. They were GONE!!!

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In a way I'm happy. It serves as a wake up call.... this is the real world. This is survival of the fittest. I have to be not just fit but fittest!!

My Friends & I ^^